Monday, 19 May 2014

Inner Desires of the Heart

I need to take the opportunity every one, to give my apologies for being away for such a long time!! I may as well admit to blogging failure but not defeat, I'm just one huge procrastinator! 

I shall do a follow up post to detail new happenings and adventures with Mr KB as in fairness, an amount of changes occurred in the last 7 months. Changes that include ups and downs:: My beautiful family cat sadly passed away to kitty heaven, I celebrated my 26th birthday, started a job/changed the job and built up a mass of memories with Mr KB :-)

Recently, I have been thinking about desires and how, as humans, we all have wants and needs. Perhaps some of us openly have more than others (?) As a norm, I'm pretty open and direct about things I would like, necessities I need or desires I crave. However, I can closet these away depending on the company.. rather alike to switching your true personality on or off when it suits! 

Take me, I'm a worry wart to the core; my own worst enemy who can have little faith in oneself! I know what my inner desires are and to be honest, I daren't imagine what kind of lunatic mess I will be in when I finish preparing for those wants and needs. My other half says I'm like a hamster, constantly running around on the wheel; but in my head (yeah, he confuses me too!) I can't help it though, my head still feels like it's playing "catch up" due to my previous illness :-/ Mmm I guess I am just one of those "happy, but.." girls. The ones who say "oh I have so much to do but it can wait until tomorrow". I change my mind like the wind, never entirely sure on the correct option- Not that great in my line of work!

However, wait… Is there a correct option?! Our hearts can get so conflicted with our heads that I often think we lose sight of what's what. We've all heard of the quarter-life crisis. Mine's still lingering, the other half's is in full flow! I fully believe that generations have either evolved to become more stressed or I must just thrive on it haha. Getting our inner desires is hard. Life is expensive. Getting on the property ladder is tough and student debt follows graduates like a bad smell. It is a rat race we've become accustomed to and sometimes I wonder where the meaning is, the solitude, the lack of pressure. 
           For me, it's likely I have unrealistic expectations of what to achieve by the age of 30 but for anyone who understands my nature, I love a good old time frame…Eureka! Spontaneity, there's nothing quite like it, unless of course you have no time or ££ for it- then that's when you hit your crisis. Life has bitten you with realism. Which sucks. You know though, I don't want that much; a nice house, career, children, husband, car. It's the process that's tricky! 

There's no wonder teen girls look at young, rich celebs and find themselves wrapped up in the media's web of lies! I mean, we can't all have a gigantic bank account or live off the bank of Mum and Dad. I do find the whole vast amount of money that is thrown around quite extravagant and over can start to piece together why some teenagers are becoming self indulgent and materialistic :-( 

Why Can I Not Turn Back Time!?!

So surely then, if we gain a new perspective on ourselves, we will feel content. Life is what you make of it after all :-) Our deepest desires certainly don't have to cost fortunes of money, if anything. It's important to realise that what we want doesn't always come to us, yet things we've wished for, for years can happen in an instant, when least expected. Learning to live with what we have and been given can be difficult but also necessary. Perhaps what every 20-something woman needs to discover is that: -

1)  Money cannot buy happiness, love, status or success
2)  Budgeting and managing finances is a sure way to reach a goal This is hard, very hard but doable, I scrimp and save in the hope that I'll get my dream house in a few years. In the meantime, I'll settle for a property that will see me through a rough, saving patch
3)  Forming strong relationships/friendships is key to a healthy lifestyle
4)  There must be room for fun and adventure It needs be done for one's sanity. A walk somewhere new, a slightly expensive purchase, a meal out, a weekend away...just budget it in ;-) 
5)  Now you're all grown up, gain body confidence Accept the flaws and assets but if you are still not content, change it. Exercise healthily in order to get your dream bod! [I must follow my own advice here]

So hopefully, we can all sit back and relax a bit more, quit the worrying and we'll be on track to fulfilment - AND BE MORE DOG! 

What advice would you give to another 20-something? Is there anything you regret not doing or would change?