Life Thus Far: an overview

Oh my oh my, sweet friends. I am SO delayed!! If there was an award for procrastination that would definitely go to me; the master {not that I condone procrastinating!}… I have also realised that I haven't posted a LTF series in an exceedingly long time so, without further ado…

The weather here in Britain has been particularly unpredictable which is kind've wreaking havoc with my moods (and head; my shunt reacts to weather!), so I've not felt I've had the chance to really sit and write up about what's been going on lately, so I'm sitting here with my incense on whilst my cat pesters me for attention; it's as best a time as any eh!! 
       Do you ever sense a surge of overwhelment coming your way, like me?? I tell you, I was all guns blazing in January; I really wanted to kick start 2017 with a bang and "let that sh*t go" but by February, things starting going haywire again. Not in a bad way but things starting going wrong. I don't know if it's the fact that I've become a tad more in tune with spirituality or if it's just life being a bitch, ha….Anyway, today I'm focused on the affirmation found in Katie Piper's book Start Your Day With Katie: 365 Affirmations for a Year of Positive Thinking which I've used religiously: - 

'Seek harmony in your soul and kindness in the people close to you; happiness found in material things will not bring you lasting joy.'

I think that is such a comforting statement! When I think of this, what I consider is that I've definitely spent the last few months clearing out what doesn't serve me. I mean, as you may have read, my persona can flip a lot and as much as I can feel overwhelming, there's also so much oomph within me. My father, as I noted in my last post, had been poorly on&off since November; he's been feeling better for a couple of months so that's lifted some heavy clouds that were lingering!!

With a tendency to over-think and rethink, I decided to take advantage of the Spring Equinox & re-align and balance those scales, so to speak…it can be easy for some of us to jump from decision to decision and feel like you're 'all over the place', but that's where Spring can help to ease us into a sense of harmony, renewal & reassess some priorities. 
        So I took the opportunity to look for some volunteer work, on the side. I started some training in Feb/March at a homeless emergency nightshelter so yep, loving my shifts there. I've done plenty of volunteering in my time but working with the homeless is something I've wanted to pursue for a long time! I still feel like my journey is ongoing; my dreams are still there to attain but I'm always off on a tangent! However, you have to trust that the universe will offer you great changes in divine timing :)

The purpose you aspire to is always there so I continue going forward, and if it helps anyone, my advice is to get out in nature if you need help in cleansing and expanding your soul. Nature is breathtaking with its untouched beauty and there really is something so purifying about being around it (even if you bring it indoors- note my precious cactus above). A New Moon is coming up this Wednesday that's heading into the sign of Taurus so that calls for bullish energy that'll keep us grounded and fuel newfound wisdom, so take hold of reliable and earthly feels!

Stowe, National Trust, Buckingham

I adore this capture I snapped; it's as if the heavens are breaking through with our angels. Enchanted. So, lovely folks, I'll leave you with that. I intend to carry on keeping my dreams in sight, continue learning & doing new things and steer clear of negative emotional entanglements - has the year started off how you intended? Or perhaps your desires or intentions have changed? Let me know, I'd love to hear and trade stories…

…and ps. our moon cycles can offer us so much subconscious information, so listen to your intuition always, and if you're a deep thinker who follows the watery fluidity of your many thoughts, just think, you're probably a mermaid ;-) Take care guys!

Inner Desires of the Heart

I need to take the opportunity every one, to give my apologies for being away for such a long time!! I may as well admit to blogging failure but not defeat, I'm just one huge procrastinator! 

I shall do a follow up post to detail new happenings and adventures with Mr KB as in fairness, an amount of changes occurred in the last 7 months. Changes that include ups and downs:: My beautiful family cat sadly passed away to kitty heaven, I celebrated my 26th birthday, started a job/changed the job and built up a mass of memories with Mr KB :-)

Recently, I have been thinking about desires and how, as humans, we all have wants and needs. Perhaps some of us openly have more than others (?) As a norm, I'm pretty open and direct about things I would like, necessities I need or desires I crave. However, I can closet these away depending on the company.. rather alike to switching your true personality on or off when it suits! 

Take me, I'm a worry wart to the core; my own worst enemy who can have little faith in oneself! I know what my inner desires are and to be honest, I daren't imagine what kind of lunatic mess I will be in when I finish preparing for those wants and needs. My other half says I'm like a hamster, constantly running around on the wheel; but in my head (yeah, he confuses me too!) I can't help it though, my head still feels like it's playing "catch up" due to my previous illness :-/ Mmm I guess I am just one of those "happy, but.." girls. The ones who say "oh I have so much to do but it can wait until tomorrow". I change my mind like the wind, never entirely sure on the correct option- Not that great in my line of work!

However, wait… Is there a correct option?! Our hearts can get so conflicted with our heads that I often think we lose sight of what's what. We've all heard of the quarter-life crisis. Mine's still lingering, the other half's is in full flow! I fully believe that generations have either evolved to become more stressed or I must just thrive on it haha. Getting our inner desires is hard. Life is expensive. Getting on the property ladder is tough and student debt follows graduates like a bad smell. It is a rat race we've become accustomed to and sometimes I wonder where the meaning is, the solitude, the lack of pressure. 

           For me, it's likely I have unrealistic expectations of what to achieve by the age of 30 but for anyone who understands my nature, I love a good old time frame…Eureka! Spontaneity, there's nothing quite like it, unless of course you have no time or ££ for it- then that's when you hit your crisis. Life has bitten you with realism. Which sucks. You know though, I don't want that much; a nice house, career, children, husband, car. It's the process that's tricky! 

There's no wonder teen girls look at young, rich celebs and find themselves wrapped up in the media's web of lies! I mean, we can't all have a gigantic bank account or live off the bank of Mum and Dad. I do find the whole vast amount of money that is thrown around quite extravagant and over exposed..you can start to piece together why some teenagers are becoming self indulgent and materialistic :-( 

Why Can I Not Turn Back Time!?!

So surely then, if we gain a new perspective on ourselves, we will feel content. Life is what you make of it after all :-) Our deepest desires certainly don't have to cost fortunes of money, if anything. It's important to realise that what we want doesn't always come to us, yet things we've wished for, for years can happen in an instant, when least expected. Learning to live with what we have and been given can be difficult but also necessary. Perhaps what every 20-something woman needs to discover is that: -

1)  Money cannot buy happiness, love, status or success

2)  Budgeting and managing finances is a sure way to reach a goal This is hard, very hard but doable, I scrimp and save in the hope that I'll get my dream house in a few years. In the meantime, I'll settle for a property that will see me through a rough, saving patch

3)  Forming strong relationships/friendships is key to a healthy lifestyle

4)  There must be room for fun and adventure It needs be done for one's sanity. A walk somewhere new, a slightly expensive purchase, a meal out, a weekend away...just budget it in ;-) 

5)  Now you're all grown up, gain body confidence Accept the flaws and assets but if you are still not content, change it. Exercise healthily in order to get your dream bod! [I must follow my own advice here]

So hopefully, we can all sit back and relax a bit more, quit the worrying and we'll be on track to fulfilment - AND BE MORE DOG! 

What advice would you give to another 20-something? Is there anything you regret not doing or would change?